Tuesday, November 22, 2011

November 22, 2011, Lakewood, CO
13:58:58, hours MST
...continued hiker’s journal… 


What follows is my letter to a man who took the Road Less Traveled:

Remember to pause… then breathe… and then go on from here slowly… How is your diet?

Your kind sentiment is not lost on me and I dare say so; otherwise you would not know this although I sense you get it big time.
You did the growing inside and although you were ‘‘helped” — it was your mind/body/intellect and spirit that matured and I believe it true when I write to you that—> Although you may have emotional emergencies from time to time you are reaching a better outcome on account that the AOD use and abuse is a circumstance of the past and that you understand viscerally that any emotional response is a temporary thing.

The true test of the pudding is in the longer range composite of putting the pieces in place coherently. The pulls of the emotional lobbying, the politicking or media purveyors are just that and nothing more. Sound bites, superficiality and news- cycles do not count in the personal growth circles. In the growing business— thoughtful discussion followed by still thoughtful action is what we are after, here. It does go with saying that seeking out the folks in the practice and being amongst them will give clarity to our visions and benefits to our communalness and in turn to our individualities.

Leave the national election puppeteering, Exxons, Morgan Stanleys, Coal mining conglomerates and Railroading CEO’s out of the mind. They have their places in the front of the money line.

Let’s leave this propagandizing, proselytizing and garnering to those that sit on the circus tent floor. We have other mindful things to think and ponder about.

The so- called 1% is being badgered to death in the media, although the message is sound, logical and reasoned. Imagine the saddened state of affairs should AA’s message be harassed ad infinitum as is the Occupy Wall Street message— and being debased to boot. 

Sometimes all we can do in the old camera- checkable fashion is to stay true to our convictions and give them a voice. Remember the Price of Loyalty to the truth— there is ALWAYS retribution to contend with as a result.  Our job is to live through the retribution and record it for posterity, however keep the keen sharp eye and practice on the goal. 

All the posturing can not give one a sober mind and neither can the swaggering candidates of the opposition party challenging the current national administration.  The salient point is complex but understandable; it is through our growing processes and activities that we can, in a real sense, be of some useful value to humanity at large. 



Go forth gently my friend…       

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

November 16, 2011, Lakewood, CO
15:15:36, hours MST
...continued hiker’s journal…

Current Reading List:
  • People of the Deer / Farley Mowat
  • The Desperate People; Farley Mowat .With woodcuts by Rosemary Kilbourn.
  • The Quest: Energy, Security and the Remaking of the modern World / Daniel Yergin.
  • The Novice: A Story of True Love / Thich Nhat Hanh.
  • Models Behaving Badly: Why Confusing Illusion with Reality Can Lead to Disaster, on Wall Street and in Life / Emanuel Derman.

Shade it Black: Death and After in Iraq by Jessica Goodell is a decent narrative. Was a primer for my understanding the systematic classism and racism subsumed in the structure of the Marine Corps. As well, the Mortuary Affairs unit of the Marines sheds stark light on the every day occurrences producing PTSD in our young enlistees.

What is on your reading list?


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Alleluia/Pachelbel/Robert Gass



Alleluia/Pachelbel/Robert Gass


November 11, 2011

Author’s note:
[Shade It Black by Jessica Goodell. This marine was attached to Mortuary Affairs in Iraq. A decent narrative concerning racism/ classism within the Marines and PTSD. Recommended by me strongly as a background read into the nature of the business.]


 
This interview was originally broadcast on October 13, 2011.
Improvements in medical care and equipment mean fewer troops are dying on the battlefield. But more troops are returning home severely wounded, with injuries that require lifelong care and cost millions of dollars in medical bills.
On Thursday's Fresh Air, veteran combat reporter David Wood talks about some of the challenges that severely wounded soldiers face when they return from Afghanistan and Iraq. Wood is the author of a new 10-part series for The Huffington Post called "Beyond the Battlefield" that examines some of those challenges and setbacks.
One of the things that we as a country are learning is that people who are wounded in war are wounded forever.
- David Wood
Wood tells Fresh Air's Terry Gross that fewer U.S. troops die outright on the battlefield — because of protective equipment and better medical care. But more Americans are being wounded, and their injuries are more "severe and complex." The number of American soldiers who lost at least one limb doubled from 2009 to 2010, and the number of triple amputees has nearly doubled, he says. Almost all of the severely injured troops return to the U.S. with traumatic brain injuries (TBI).
"It's so tragic to see these young men and women struggling not only to master prosthetic legs, for example, but to try to fight their way through the fog that descends into your brain when you have a brain injury like that," says Wood. "It's often very hard for them to think clearly, to recall words, to do small problems, to remember to take their medication and make their appointments. Surprisingly, there's been so much advancement in physical medicine during this war — but it's only been in recent years that the military has recognized TBI as a combat wound, and it's pretty clear that no one knows what the best treatment is."

 
A Soldier's Story
One of the soldiers Wood profiles is Lance Cpl. Tyler Southern. Southern was 19 when an improvised explosive device, or IED, blew up underneath him in Afghanistan. The blast tore up both of his legs and one arm, and mangled his remaining left arm. Southern was taken to an intermediate battlefield medical facility where he flat-lined.
"He was bleeding so heavily that they could not keep blood in him, and the blood was pouring out of him," says Wood. "As soon he came off the helicopter and they rushed him into an operating room, doctors slashed off the side of his chest and reached in and clamped off all of the veins leading to the lower part of his body in an effort to squeeze what little remaining fluid was left up to his brain to keep his brain alive."
After he had stabilized, Southern was transferred to Walter Reed Army Medical Center's amputee center, where wounded veterans learn how to adapt to their injuries. He faces years of rehab, after having endured dozens of surgeries to clean and repair his limbs. But he manages to make light of his situation — he has handed out T-shirts to other Marines on his floor that say "I had a blast!" and spends most of his days working out to try to build muscle in his remaining limb.
"He's an extremely active, very funny, very bright, very quick person ," says Wood. "It's hard to get him to stand still to talk to him. He's constantly moving."
'People Who Are Wounded In War Are Wounded Forever'
But not all of the soldiers Wood writes about have thrived as much as Southern. Jimmy Cleveland Kinsey II, a Marine, returned from Iraq after driving over an IED. The blast tore through his leg, leaving him with shrapnel wounds, burns, post-traumatic stress disorder and TBI. When he returned home, Kinsey was in chronic pain.
"He was a good Marine, a fun-loving guy. I never knew him, but he's the kind of guy you'd like to hang around with," says Wood. "He got drugs to control the pain. His leg got worse and worse, and they had to take it off. ... That set him into a depression. His addiction to pain medication and anxiety medication got worse. Jimmy was a strong guy, but in the end his wounds and the effects of them did him in. He died in a PTSD clinic of an overdose of [the pain killer] fentanyl."
It's not clear whether Kinsey's overdose was intentional or accidental, but what is clear, says Wood, is that Kinsey didn't get the help he needed. And he's not alone. Wood writes that 18 veterans kill themselves every day. (That figure includes veterans from Vietnam and other wars.)
"When you think about it, one of the things that we as a country are learning is that people who are wounded in war are wounded forever," he says. "Even though there are many cases like Tyler Southern, people who seem to almost thrive on the challenge of their new life, even with Tyler Southern, he'll be dealing with his wounds for the rest of his life. They don't go away."

 
Interview Highlights
On IEDs
"IEDs are designed to create mayhem on the human body. For dismounted troops especially, stepping on or near an IED when it explodes beneath you, it tends to traumatically amputate one or both limbs, very often it severs the genitals and on up through the body, slashing through flesh and bone, ripping off cartilage — and on top of that, there's a fireball that burns away the damaged flesh that's left. ... Trying to clean out the wounds, trying to prevent infections, is often the first order of business, and a lot of the wounded who arrive at Walter Reed [Army Medical Center] in suburban Maryland or the Brooke Army Medical Center in San Antonio, Texas, spend many, many days having their wounds gently cleaned and cleaned and cleaned over and over again."
On troops losing their genitals after stepping on IEDs
"The Army sent a team of doctors to Afghanistan earlier this year to talk to soldiers about IEDs [and the] kinds of injuries [that result]. One of the things they reported back is that soldiers and Marines are signing do-not-resuscitate pacts — in the event that they lose their genitals, they don't want to live. ... It does reflect a deep fear among many troops that they, in essence, lose their manhood."
On getting vets the care they need
"The [Department of Veterans Affairs] is an amazing place. They do a lot of great stuff and almost everyone I've met there has been smart and creative and dedicated, and I have a lot of admiration for the people who work there. At the same time, it's a gigantic bureaucracy and it's hard to transform that bureaucracy to take care of the unique problems that we're seeing among the wounded coming back from Iraq and Afghanistan. There's been a gigantic demand for mental health services, which the VA has scrambled to keep up on, not always successfully. A lot of veterans have difficulty getting services. The wait times are sometimes very, very long. Things got so bad that a federal appeals court in California ruled that the VA was denying veterans their constitutional rights by not providing good services on time."
On being a Quaker and a conscientious objector who has been embedded with troops on and off for the past 35 years
"I got interested in telling the stories of people who were caught up in conflict. People who were fighters, people who were refugees, people who were victims — the vast number of people who work constantly to resolve conflict and to get sides talking. I never felt that by reporting the stories of people in conflict that I was endorsing conflict in any way. ... Being a conscientious objector is a very personal thing. The way I thought about it: Do you want to spend the next several years killing people, or do you want to spend it doing something more productive? And that's really the way I came at that."
"I'm terrified when I'm out on a battlefield. Telling these stories, I think it's important that people understand what it's like out there, what people go through, who are the people who are doing this in Afghanistan on our behalf. Most of us have sat this war out. I want them to know what it's like and who is in the middle of it and what the consequences are. Beyond that, I don't really have an agenda. I think that's really important, especially in a democracy. We need to know who is doing it and what it's like for them."

Sunday, November 13, 2011

 November 13, 2011




Current reading list:
  • Shade it Black: Death and After in Iraq / Jessica Goodell with John Hearn.
  • People of the Deer: / Farley Mowat; with drawings by Samuel Bryant.
  • The Desperate People / Farley Mowat, With woodcuts by Rosemary Kilbourn.

Here is a shot with a Canon Powershot A590 IS “point and shoot” April 2009 on the BA @ GRCA, AZ. This is at the height of the hiker season. An immature condor resting on a side of the corridor- trail surprised me. 

Here is a video shot with a Canon Powershot A590 IS “point and shoot” April 2009




Thursday, November 10, 2011





Well, on some days —>>   the surroundings, events and conditions are just not emotional emergencies. Ever take stock of the thoughts in the head when engaging in the very sustenance of living? The doing/the actions involved; in the vital ness of your experience?

A photographer has concerns weather-wise and opinions about the camera, setting and ambient light and at times is irritated and dismayed. True?
 At other times the photographer catches the 100 dollar shot and it turned out to be just happenstance. Correct?

See?
Emotional emergencies may be at times be just the happenstance of the circumstance. Remember Rule 62—> don’t take yourself so seriously. Looking over one’s shoulder may be necessary in few cases. For the most part, it is a condition of mind and nothing more.

me

Tuesday, November 8, 2011



Well… Now I am amongst the gainful employed. The term means nothing more than I have a place to go to, and it is there that they compensate my efforts with dollars, so that I can pay bills. Along with other things I will be able to keep the car in gas money and the dog in dog food and shell out for the bills past due.

Thank you for the references you were willing to provide, for the powers that be.
The 1099 contract is beginning slowly and the lesson learned long ago is still with me— this being that beginning slowly is always a generous offer in spirit; as who knows how things will turn out? [money-wise]

Working in the field is a good fit this at this moment in time. The medical clinic last time was of good quality in that it facilitated my orientation back — to the “work-force” after the long break into hiking/ backpacking.

I’ve no regrets about leaving the “work force” career while I was in my middle 50’s. Am looking ahead to the job I just acquired as a means to pay bills and live more comfortably.

God- willing this will work out. After all it is in God’s hands, Right?

Again, thank you to all those who have helped me along the way both monetarily and empathetically.  

Jerry Garcia has been said to have coined the phrase “what a long strange trip it’s been”… in some respects yes it has— in others; it is just what the Universe has ordered for me to experience.


Thursday, November 3, 2011


November 3, 2011, Lakewood, CO         
12:03:35, hours MDT      

  ...continued hiker’s meditation…



Two steps to assuage emotional arguing:
  • Gaining agreement— Reflect content back and seek agreement,
  • Position them for solution.

Offer three alternatives to the original complaint. If any of the three alternatives are chosen— the job is done.
If not reposition them— with— you can not be helpful and can you redirect them to elsewhere so that they may receive another type of help.

The object is to be useful and a benefit to them without being drawn into their head-space and caught in their emotionalism.

Your thoughts?
Thanks,
                                                     me

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


November 2, 2011, Lakewood, CO         
11:33:21, hours MDT   
                  

  ...continued hiker’s meditation…




Saturday, September 15, 2007
The Important Thing


Defending an idea or a position is not important. Justifying or explaining the way things are is not important. Feeling more or feeling less is not important. T he movement of the mind to an imagined past or an imagined future and the feelings we feel when we follow the mind’s wanderings are not important. All of the reasons we can only be a little of who we are, and all of the ways we try to prove them to be true, are not important.

The important thing is to be awake now, to feel the transparency, to feel the universal shining through the individual, and then to allow life to express itself though us.

Rolf’s above thoughts tend to give much weight to the pointlessness inherent in living in one’s head.
Reflectiveness— upon reflection we tend to get out of our head- space and enter the realm of the sensed partialness of the moment.

I believe that there are three ways to Get- It.
1) — we get It and become available to its inherent energies and are therefore able to use It,
2)— we get It in the last three days we live on the planet and then feel remorse and guilt over not being able to reflect and use this at once vital energy during our living on the planet and then,
3) We never get it… see the dictators on the planet for example— the self- absorbed; whereby it is all about them.


Is not the through- hiker aware of this detail in his/ her walk? 
Is not the intrepid camper in walled tent on a blizzardy night not this aware as well?
Were not the Innuit of the Barrens aware of this?
The contemporary experience for American consumers is geared to have them live in their heads, so that the managers can manage them better. They do this to them by hiding the demands and clauses in the “fine print.”

Does the intrepid camper above NEED fine print while the wind and snow is howling out there?
Does the through- hiker require fine print in order to walk the 25-30 miles per day?
Did those Innuit before the demise of their Culture need fine print to know about the moment?

Did you answer no?
Your thoughts are welcome, thanks a lot for your kind attention to today’s missive.
                              me